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[Okori Tenko]

 The time of the old is gone. We can't get that back.

 The gods, though, are forever.

 If you're reading this, and don't understand any of this: Read 'The Shattering of the Celestial Courts' first.

 If you are reading this, and feel a bit angry. I want you to know that you have every right to be, but not at me. In this post, I'm looking to speak to those people who agree with what was said in The Shattering of the Celestial Courts, even if those people are angry with me for divulging such information, or if they feel I'm being offensive. My point is this: It's going to be because it is, yet that's a part of all of us whom chose to believe. Not everything is nice... but it can be, once given a chance.

 In this, just read, if you have these feelings, keep reading, because in the end, maybe you'll thank me. I usually do this in person over the phone or on a chat. This is the first time I'm making mention of this on a chat board. Chat rooms forget. Message boards, I swear are eternal. Let this be both a mark for me, and against me. It's not something good or bad of me. It just is. It's what I choose to believe.

 From here on out, I want each of you who keep reading to keep your minds open, and let the 'fox inside' listen.

 I want each of you to think on the feelings of this 'darkness', the strange regret and remorse that you've had and couldn't tell where it came from. I want you each to feel the anger that all of this makes you feel, and know where it's placed. If these feelings you found in 'The Shattering of the Celestial Courts' feels somehow right, then I want you to let the fox inside listen, and to feel the pain with him or her.

 "I know the pain you've had has been great. I know the losses you've endured. I know the fright at being alone. I know the anger at your troubles. I know the hate that you had once upon a time, which still boils and festers. I know about the silent cries you make inside, yearing to find what was lost. I know the anger at which you feel towards Those Whom you felt abandoned you. And I know the sting of guilt and shame that courses through you like blood and fire. I know it, because I once felt it too."

 "If you feel this way, then I know where you are. I also know where you can be. If this intrigues you, makes you curious, makes you wonder, even if you are angry at me for even bringing this up, then start to hope. I want you to know that the time for pain and anger -is- over."

 "I'm going to try and leave a signature that each of you should know well, here, in this post, from here on out, so that you can feel what I feel, begin to know what I know, to feel the truth once more. The Word is this:

 Their Eyes are Open. 'Hope, Passion and Purpose' is returned.

 Scoff, wail, cry, beat on me if you need to. Feel the pains... then let it go. Believe what you feel from this and start to hope again. Be curious, fox. How could it possibly be that Their eyes are open again?

 Answer: It's simply that time. It's Their time again, and They have time for us once more.

 Don't doubt. Feel. Look in that deep place again. Deep as you remember. Tread the old paths of your heart, and move past the darkness and into the light. If you feel Her. Then know that She's there. See Her, as She was, as She is now."

 "She stood there for me, eyes smiling, just as She once did a long time ago. She didn't cry to see me. She was overjoyed. I don't doubt that She would feel anything less to see one of Her Children return. My story will be yours. So don't be afraid. She isn't angry. She wants all of her Children back. Don't pause. Don't hesitate. Don't run from Her. Run to Her! She could never hate you. She would never deny you. Humanity has been forgiven, and Their eyes open once more. Her arms are open, waiting for each and every one of us. Go to Her and know your Mother once more. Feel Her as She shares Her love for you - with you, like She has every single one of us ever made by Her hands. Cry in Her arms, and let the crying be over. Let the pain go. Forgive yourself, because there is nothing to be shamed by. This -IS- Her word. Let the pain go, and let Her fill you with what She knows you need to be filled with:

 Hope, Passion and Purpose. Feel it, and live.

 "And so, She's returned, not just in you, but to you. This means we all have the Purpose again, if we chose it. Don't just believe it. Hope."

 "Feel Her Passion. Know it."

 Now quick with your steps, and light on your toes! Run past the swift waters. Tread with a light step over the deep waters. Rejoice in the falling waters. And quick to the still waters and see the light inside returned in your own reflection. See the glow and the power restored inside you, radiating so strongly without, and brush your own paw over the mark She has given you as Her own. Smile, because you're not without any more. Now make like quicksilver with light and full haste. Move faster than the winds. Show your light to the world and go from fox to fox spreading this very good message.

 "Now do. Because 'to do' -is- our Purpose."

 Carry this message as far and as wide as can be taken. :

 "The Mother returns. Her eyes are open. Her arms are open. She seeks every Child's return. Our Mother is home. Her strength is our strength. Her courage is our courage. Her hope is our hope. Her passion is our passion. Her purpose is our purpose."

 "The Time of Wailing is over. The Court is renewed, and all are welcome to come once again. Come with your burdened, en-shadowed heart, and leave with a bright, light one. The Mother calls her Children home."


 I hope, in some small way, or in a large one, that this helps... I truly hope you feel what I do.

[tsukos]

Hahahahahahaha!

I am ever the fool.


My Mother is dead, killed by men. She has returned. But I am a bitter and confused kit. I have been so long without Her that I refuse to see that She has returned.

I do not remember those things of which you speak... Only the forest of birth and death, the first winter of a newborn upon which my Mother was taken away. There are no smiles. No times of joy with Her.

I do not know of the shattering of the courts. I hear it as though it is history of before myself. There is curiosity and not anger, humor and not bitterness at that.

Without this anger, I have had hope for as long as I have known what hope is. What you offer me, what She offers me, I do not want. Perhaps that makes me a bad kit. Perhaps I will come around in time.

Your revelation tears my heart in a thousand pieces, rather than making it whole. Her love feels foreign, strange, dangerous to me. The association of love with loss.

I hope for your success. But I don't want that love, because right now I feel it will simply lead to more pain.

I am... very confused. 

[Okori Tenko]

 *nods softly and patiently.*

 If ever the time comes, and you want to meet her...


 ...come see me, and I'll reveal her to you fully for the first time.

 Yes, there's pain there. I do feel it in your words; the story of loss - of pain. The bitter cold of a wintry heart, and the shattered glass of a heart abandoned. Frozen. Just then, as you read, you were touched. A piece melted, ever single part of the shattered heart felt it, stirred, and knew pain. I won't lie. You will feel pain as your heart warms and awakens, but I won't just go away. The more it hurts, the harder you can hold on as we go. I -won't- leave you. Not until I know you know where she is.

 The first time can be the most frightening, because you will be out of your comfort zone in a strange place that you are unfamiliar with. However, in time, you will find that it's a place you'll want. It's not all bags of rice, tofu, beans and fish all the time, although the steak isn't bad... Just most of the time, and there's always alot to do. Inari is a kind Mother, but many demand much from Her. We're there to help Her answer the most important calls. THAT is the strength of Purpose. That Purpose is our Passion. It gives us Hope. And so the cycle starts again with each new task. She has a place for every one of us, and duties that suit us all, down to the very last of what we can do, and are prepared to do. Yet, She always makes time for us, when we need Her.

 We're never bored, or lonely, or astray. Instead of personal wrath we're filled with Hers, and I can swear to you, it's altogether different. Her anger is clean, not a dirty mush of emotions. There's Purpose. And yes, even some of us are shared with the other deities, like Amaterasu, Tsukiyomo and Susano-O. But that's in time, when you're ready.

 When you're ready, I'll show you the way. I can't walk it for you, but I -will- walk with you. Once you start the path, she'll carry you the rest of the way. All you need... is one single step.

 I was once considered a Nogitsune, and denied it terribly. But in the end, my friend showed me the error of my ways and I knew then why I was so dark. I knew then I was everything they called me and worse. For a few seconds, I thought I was forever damned. I thought I was abandoned. I though She wasn't there for me. I couldn't feel Her at all. Just rage, and the pain of a shattered heart because of three who were important to me, who were taken from me. I didn't know if she would ever take me back. Until I heard a brotherly voice from my friend that made me hope. All he said was, "Next time, let's do it the right way." The greatest challenge I had to make was in taking that first step back towards light. It's the hardest thing I had to do was take one. single. step. I had to Hope. Even after the first step and looking back, I could have sworn I walked alone for most of that path, but then I realized, I just wasn't paying enough attention. She was walking with me and waiting for me to see her. She was there the whole time, waiting patiently.

 ...as I will now wait patiently for you, and any other kitsune to come so that I can guide you to Her. I'm not the only Messenger, but I am one of the ones that knows a way. Not exactly a short cut, but close enough. It may seem like a long route, but in the end, the path is shorter than it looks. I've walked all the long paths back. I know the short cuts. Some we can take. Some we can't. It depends on you.

 Like Inari, I'll be here waiting, with an outstretched paw, waiting for you to take it, and I'll show you the way. You'll never be the same again. I swear it on my own tails.

[tsukos]

Whether through foolishness or through fate, I fear I will be a long time in coming around. But if you are willing to wait, however long it takes, eventually... everything returns, eventually.

For now, I do not want to tread a path that others travel. That is the path that leads home; a place of the familiar and the wanted for many. I will return home someday... but first I will go out and see what I can find, because that is also something I want.

An analogy:

I've been lost in the woods for so long. Someone has thought to put a light in the window, but now that I can see it, it gives me strength, and the desire to explore that forest, because I'll always be able to find the way home. But I may not return home for a long while yet.

Perhaps... you are someone sent to make sure I don't get hurt while I'm screwing around out here. 

[Kira]

 
Damn...
That brought tears even to my eyes.
 
Who are you?
Sei?

[Kitsunami]

 

I felt i had to post here, if only to express this.

While I cannot rationally explain why I felt compelled to post here, nor why reading the post brought me to tears, nor can I explain why I always carry a deep sadness and anger for no real reason....

If this 'court' of fools existed, I would not waste my time with them, especially ones who seem to delight in leaving others stuck in misery.

I have no home, and there is little place for me in this world or the next. If I am a fox or a vixen, Im a pretty poor one at that.

Edit: oh, and hi. Im the resident depressive pessemistic skeptic. I dont visit often anymore, i glance now and then. Kira linked me here again and I felt that I had to say something.

[Okori Tenko]

 Then allow me to make a similar analogy.

 As you wander the woods, The mother has put a light in the window. She sent one of her other sons out to make sure her other kits are safe. I watch as a big brother, and as an equal. Now that I smell you, know when you are? Hear you?... I know where you are. You're still growing, and of course I'm going to let you trip over branches, bump into logs and run into trees so you know they're there.

 ...but the moment you fall into a hole, call for me, and I'll be there to take you out, and take you home.

 That's what a good brother does.

 And if you want to know by now who I am, if you've been reading any of my other posts, you should know. I don't just easily let others simply know what I am just by telling them. I try to let them figure it out for themselves.

 It's not by your words that others come to know who you are, it is by the actions they see, when you do what you know is the right thing.

 Yet, I want a part of this game to be over.

 I'll give you a greater part of my name, but not my full name.

 I am the Iko no Inari, Tenko Otsukai, Myobu no Kemono Youkai, Inaka Okori.
 Last Known of the Ken Odoriko.

 I'm here... because from my heart, I know Mother doesn't let me go where I'm not needed, but sends me where I'm most needed. I will not be arrogant and say 'I am the light'. I will let you know that I'm your brother, and point out the light in the darkness, and even take you there, if you don't want to walk alone.

 I know the way home, and have walked it myself. I never walked alone. I just couldn't see Her in the dark. She's at home, looking from the window, and stands beside me now. I don't feel so alone. None of you have to either.

 I watch. I wait. I listen. I'll be patient, just as She taught me patients while waiting for my own fool-arrogant self to notice Her with me, with my own paw held open, like she held Hers open for me.

 I -won't- fail you. I'm determined not to.

[Zephiris]

I know I'll get yelled at, but, I really wish that if people were going to spin the longest, tangliest yarns ever yet seen, they'd at least do a better job on coming up with the 'creative writing' part.

So many cliches.

[Kitsunami]

If there is a light I have never seen it. If there is family they have left me forgotten.

I must concur with Zeph here, in believing that you are simply a spinner of tales, and I commend you for it is a good one.

Even if you were speaking in truth, I am beyond the help of any 'guide', especially those who watch and never take part.

The day which I am free, Is the day when I finally die, mostly because those who try to 'help' seem to believe that allowing me to stay in the hole Is preferable to pulling me out.

You can call all you like, you can scream with your heart and soul for a saviour, and they will never come. This is my experiance in life, bitter as it might be.

[Okori Tenko]

 *smiles playfully at Zephiris.*

 Ah... but cliches are so well known. >^.^<

 Aside from that... I'll hold anything more to say...

 That's your second bite at me...

 "The Good Book always said to turn the other cheek. It doesn't tell me what to do after-wards, but I'd suppose you're gonna be on your own. I'd suggest heeding the Good Word and to do unto others an' all that. ... Now, THAT'S my other cheek!"

 ~Lonesome Dove, the Series~

Kitsunami:

 You can believe that I'm a spinner of tales, but what kitsune isn't? Flourished. Embellished. Flagrant. Yes. False? ... You have to find your own truth to that. And that's exactly what I offer to anyone who decides to see me. I help them to find personal strength. Ask the number who've already come to see me.

 If you think it's too late, I'd want to counter and say that it's not, but as much as I'd try to convince you, it's yourself who must convince you.

 Maybe others would leave you in a hole... but I wasn't close enough to hear the cry you made on that day. Though weak, and almost gone, still at the bottom of that hole, I'm here now... and if you want me to dig you out, carry you out, nurse you back to health to where you have good strength back? ... I won't hesitate to do so. Just because I wear a mask doesn't mean the helping paw is an illusion. The very first step to coming back from the lands of roots to the lands of green fields is to hope there is sun over the grass.

 I don't give up. I don't give in. Not when there is even one who would ask that I help them. There's always a way. I'll find it.

 It's what I do. >^.^<

[Hakuzo NightFox]

I Feel this is the best place to post my experience... For most of my life I followed the 'christan' God for nearly 25 years. Over the course of a year Inari called me back... and I had to face a choice.... Stay with God or return back to Inari.

Over time I realized I never felt connected to God.... and once I return back to Inari I felt instantly connected. As thus I have returned home in this life time. In the past, I have been devoted to Inari in past lives almost non-stop.....

So in essence I found my way back home because I already knew the way. It just seems I had to wait for the right time to return. Now the experiences I've had with being with Inari have been very fulfilling but no means an easy walk. It has been things I have been able to handle because I was ready for them.

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