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[tsukiyomaru0]

I'm tired of holding this in my chest: I'm an Yama-Inu... I don't know why the curses I'm always feeling alone and what is going to happen to me... I'm scared, feling the need to kill, to bring doom to the mankind... I don't know what to do...

[Taoki]

I understand hun, I know. But the only thing we can do now is just be patient, unfortunately. Just relax, and do best to do what is right and stay away from things like death.

[Monique]

Try your hardest to suppress those feeling, murder is a punishable offense whether your human or not.

[reiko]

You sound like one of those people who kill animals because they "feel the need to kill" and end up growing up as a rapist.

And, quite frankly, your desire to doom mankind sounds like something from a roleplay game. Go outside and do some jumping jacks.

[Taoki]

Reiko, there's no need to be so rude. Try to understand, some are how they are, and have to live with such sadness. Hate for something and willingness to destroy something come with a -reason-. Everything we feel we feel for a reason, and in such cases it is always a good one, and something important and deep for that person.

Also, this sounds very much like being possessed too. And if an evil spirit is trying to possess someone, it is not their fault for being weaker. If a spirit would try to enter you and make you do things and hate, you would be scared, hurt in many ways, and not like it.

[Nintai no Nogitsune]

Reiko, your posts always hint strongly with bitterness and arrogance. I can see your probably used to insulting people and getting away with it because your cute. At least new guys anyway, I'm sure they leave you after a while since you drive them off (I don't blame you though, it's your nature to weed out losers from the crowd), though, it leaves you all alone in the end, which only adds fuel to the self you project. I bet you are seen as a arrogant bitch to most people. I know past your little social shield, you are a beautiful, loving girl, and wish someone amazing would come to realize it, see past everything and sweep you off your feet with him for being simply who you are. You know it’s true.

[reiko]

Please excuse my biting tone, Elmind, I do so hope you won't begrudge me a second chance to keep my tongue no matter the truth, harsh or not, claws at my throat! But I mean this with all playfulness and no negative feelings, of course. ;3

No, no there is no "good reason" for harboring such hate towards anyone or anything that you'd feel the NEED to kill.
Hitler had a reason, do you deem it a good one?
As did Stalin, Asama bin Laden, and multiple murderers, rapists, outraging filth that say their actions were cause of good reason.

Seeing as I don't believe in possession or walk-ins, no.
I could understand if he were depressed, or even angsty due to our lovely hormones, but only if he had tried to explain to his parents, friends, or someone he trusted before an online community full of strangers, kin or not.


@Nogitsune- Bitterness? Towards the idealistic irrationality of all people I see, including myself at times, perhaps. Arrogance, yes I know.
You are wrong on some accounts. I'm not all alone. I have people whom I love very much, and vice versa. They'd die for me and I'd die for them, that's how close we are.
You know, I bet I am seen as an arrogant bitch. Arrogant, bitchy, narcissistic, vain, proud - I am all these things, and have accepted it. I know these flaws of mine, but I take them as compliments, as strange as that may be. They make me who I am as of the moment, that's all.
If someone can't stand to be around me because I want to get to the bottom of whatever they say, then they aren't worth a second of my time.
I'm a girl, and a teenager at that. Of course I want simple, romantic things every other girl wants. But if it means changing who I am without naturally growing due to people I interact with and situations to mold me for better or worse, then quite frankly, screw them.

[Taoki]

Just try to learn to be nicer, more open minded then now, more accepting... it will make you a lot better then you are. The more you choose to understand, the better you become.

Yeah, probably not a "good" reason, but an understandable one. I don't want anyone to be truly hurt, though I do mention the opposite sometimes. And possession is so so true... it is something known to happen since ancient times. Even the christians, who choose to believe so little, know possession exists. This is something I have no doubts can happen.

But don't forget there are also spirits called "shadows", who leech of people who are depressed and do mean and evil things to feed, and make them do even more evil to have what to feed of. There are so many things that bring bad into someone.

[reiko]

Just try to learn to be nicer, more open minded then now, more accepting... it will make you a lot better then you are. The more you choose to understand, the better you become.

I'll work towards a "better" version of me at my own pace, not when someone orders me to do so.
Funny you think that, since plenty of people seem to think I'm "better" than others now.

[Nintai no Nogitsune]

I'll work towards a "better" version of me at my own pace, not when someone orders me to do so.
Funny you think that, since plenty of people seem to think I'm "better" than others now.

No, you just think you're better, which is very different from reality.

[reiko]

No, you just think you're better, which is very different from reality.

Oh, now you're just aiming to hurt my feelings, Nogitsune. ;)

[Nintai no Nogitsune]

Oh, now you're just aiming to hurt my feelings, Nogitsune.

I'm just telling the truth, Reiko. I'm sure you'll land back down to earth eventually.

[reiko]

I'm just telling the truth, Reiko. I'm sure you'll land back down to earth eventually. ;)

But I'd rather stay up here and loll about my cloud castle. Eventually I'll come down to visit, and perhaps we could play.

[Aine]

Though I'm a spiritual person, I look at things through different perspectives to make sure it's not something physical.
Elmind, are you taking any medicines that may have anger, irritation, or rage as a side effect? It happened to me - I took a medicine that made me angry as a side effect, and that scared me because I knew it wasn't me. I know certain mood stabilizers can cause them. If so, talk to your doctor about possibly switching to a new one.
If not, you may want to go to a doctor about it anyway. Believe me, if you have anything like depression, anxiety, or related problems, it helps so much to get something to help treat it. Of course, don't tell them that you believe you're a Yama-Inu, because, well, different doctors respond different ways and some may regard it as a spiritual things and others, well, they might not.

Remember - if you're not sure whether something is caused by something physical/psychological or spiritual, make sure to look down both roads. The feeling of needing to kill is something that you definitely should not be feeling, even if you think it is due to you being a Yama-Inu.

[Taoki]

I didn't order you anything Reiko, it was just my advice. I don't order anyone, or tell them what to do against their own will like that, that is evil.

But yes, I perfectly agree with Nogitsune. I do not believe the way you are being mean now is something nice, though I know you're not truly someone bad or careless otherwise I would probably care less. There's no need to take every dialog here as a fight, we don't want to fight what you believe or anything. We just want to talk together and stick together nicely, I just believe it is important. I know you can be nicer, if you really want to. I'm just saying listen to me once and just try it, you'll like it I'm just telling you this in a good caring way.

Aine, even if what you say could be true in some cases, keep in mind you can be confusing angst / medical problems with character, self and belief mismatch. It has to be made clear that some of us are very affected by what our true self is, and that is why we hate a blind and hateful world like that too.

I don't think I got to hate the world so badly myself, but I have to a point and I clearly know why I dislike "ordinary people" the way I do. The reason I stopped is because I understood in the end (though I always knew) that harm and hate are bad, and even if they are stupid and bad, bringing pain and death to them or anyone alive is wrong. And the slower you realize that, the more you will harm yourself. But when it comes to the reason why we feel like that, yes, I understand and know why.

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