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[Seeker]

It's not exactly complicated. No previous experience needed XD

[Kitsunami]

Really, i dont like excercising. Im lazy and see precious little point in it.

and i dont hate meditating, i just simply dont seem to be able to do it xD

[Kitsunami]

Perhaps.

But i dont like it, i dont do it.

As my depression has grown, my will to bother in anything has lowered.

I used to walk through the forest....

....What forest?

Its gone now. Golf club rectified where there once was shrubs, open lands, forest and such.

Now theres just a small bit of wood as a reminder (for the golfers to walk through) and a beautiful river that is now full of the golfers waste....

[Seeker]

  indeed.

[Kitsunami]

Dear, i was sucked down ong before, fought, lost and accepted it.

[Okori Tenko]

 I'd like to add to this:

 Foremost, many here seem to want to shy away from trying something different. Others latch onto it with a frenzy.

 Mediation is good, but truth is, it isn't the catch-all.

 So, for those whom need something different, I'm going to suggest something.

 Think more. Think alot. Not about anything in specific, but about anything at all. Running, your car, bowling, cheese, computers. Whatever makes you excited. The more you become excited, the more 'energy' flows inside you. When you are hyper enough, and 'internally energetic' enough, you theoretically -should- have enough thoughts flowing to suddenly 'stop', and notice the twitching/sway of your 'agitated tails'.

 When you can 'feel them', count them. If not, try something different. Try absorbing different elements. If you suddenly 'feel your tails light up with 'such an element', you can count them. It's not always accurate, but it does work. Keep absorbing until you feel like the 'tails' are ready to burst, and you'll have a pretty accurate count.

 Some elements are in constant notion. How do you know if there's wind if the breeze doesn't blow? How do you know it's hot if fire doesn't burn? The same applies to those kitsune whom are bound to 'energetic elements'. This may be exactly why 'calm meditation' doesn't work for you.

 Food for thought.

[Kyuuji]

 I'd like to add to this:

 Foremost, many here seem to want to shy away from trying something different. Others latch onto it with a frenzy.

 Mediation is good, but truth is, it isn't the catch-all.

 So, for those whom need something different, I'm going to suggest something.

 Think more. Think alot. Not about anything in specific, but about anything at all. Running, your car, bowling, cheese, computers. Whatever makes you excited. The more you become excited, the more 'energy' flows inside you. When you are hyper enough, and 'internally energetic' enough, you theoretically -should- have enough thoughts flowing to suddenly 'stop', and notice the twitching/sway of your 'agitated tails'.

 When you can 'feel them', count them. If not, try something different. Try absorbing different elements. If you suddenly 'feel your tails light up with 'such an element', you can count them. It's not always accurate, but it does work. Keep absorbing until you feel like the 'tails' are ready to burst, and you'll have a pretty accurate count.

 Some elements are in constant notion. How do you know if there's wind if the breeze doesn't blow? How do you know it's hot if fire doesn't burn? The same applies to those kitsune whom are bound to 'energetic elements'. This may be exactly why 'calm meditation' doesn't work for you.

 Food for thought.

That's the reason why i love extreme opposite

[Yokai-Friend]

I have the same kind of problem with my confidence in my gut and imagination. But what I've come to discover is that imagination is actually very close to spirit senses, and it's the center of magic in the mind. If you get confused on your gut feelings, perhaps you should get a divining tool such as a pendulum...even kitsune need help with their abilities sometimes. 
I hope I helped a little...

[Fujo Jigen]

Are there any tips, guidance or methods with which any of the wiser kitsunes on here could provide me with ?

I know little of myself as a kitsune, other than my name and occasionally the odd dream. My problem is that im a writer, and my imagination is very, very strong. Its like a raging torrent of images, colors and fantasy landscapes.

This is of course naturally a problem when trying to find myself, because i am not bound by 'reality' as defined by humans, since my imagination is always on overdrive. While i may for instance, imagine that i see myself a certain way, that may not be true at all. (i naturally have doubts about myself, my dragon guide is always trying to get me to drop them)

So, presumably i have 6 tails. Why ? Because i have had dreams in the past where i was a white vixen with 6 tails. I once asked a lot of my freinds, that if i was a kitsune how many tails do they think i would have, and having asked, they all thought 6. And of course, my dragon who's advice i highly value, believed me to have six.

Now i dont claim to be all powerful, i would be quite happy to discover myself and have just the one tail. It just felt 'right', thats just how i can describe the feeling i get when i think about my tails.

I have tried astral projection and meditation before now, but i have had no success. My overactive imagination is extroadinarily tough to 'calm' and ive yet to truly achieve holding it for a long period of time, and when i do clear my thoughts, i always lose track and will 'snap' out of it after a random amount of time then realise i was just staring off into nothing for awhile.

Apologies for the long post, it would just be rather comforting to find myself, and put a lot of my troubles to rest.

Like you I have a mass imagination, which is why Im an artist, unfortunately Im not a very good seer when it comes to energy though I can manipulate it like crazy, Im also an empathy which makes me able to feel not only emotions but energy alot easier *which is why I can manipulate it so well.

For me the best way to find out how many I had was to 'feel' them I moved one at a time and felt them against move against me, when I tried to move the next one that wasnt there I didnt feel anything, after that It started becoming much clearer with more practice. though now I have a friend who is an expert at seeing aura's and is training me on that while I train her in empathy XD

If you wanna work on actually seeing I suggest either have a friend to work with or a mirror, with either one you'll need a single solid colored wall, and just kinda 'stare' in a way at your outline eventually you'll kinda look imbetween I guess you can say and start to see colors rising and constantly moving, I remembered that I was once unconciously learning how to see aura's on my own a long time ago during taikwando/aikido my sensei's aura was a light semi neon greenish color. My friend who can see then non stop says mines like a  like mother of pearl http://www.virtualkhan.com/ProductImages/MP103.jpg though paler in color and see through.

Hope that helps!

[Takumi-no-Kitsune]

Your above statement, my friend, has just given me a self realization that I overlooked. I know what tails I have, but I've lost touch with feeling them lately, and perhaps that is because I have my aura blocked for my own specific reason...

*facepalm*

[Fujo Jigen]

Your above statement, my friend, has just given me a self realization that I overlooked. I know what tails I have, but I've lost touch with feeling them lately, and perhaps that is because I have my aura blocked for my own specific reason...

*facepalm*

you can never go wrong with a facepalm  hey that kinda rhymed.... but hey even I have those facepalm moments and I know what you mean Ive had to block my aura before too because my 'ex friend' (who broke all ties with me leaving me clueless as to why) keeps trying to put curses on me, luckily my friend who can see aura's knows when she tries something cause she'll see something black, goopy, slippery, and hair like, trying to cling to me. though Ive developed a way to not have to worry about it anymore. what I do is I manipulate my aura to disintegrate any foreign aura. pretty much I picture the edge of my aura kinda looking like pixels which are made of even smaller pixels and so on and so on, that attack anything bad aimed at me though I try not to have it on all the time, I had it on around my friend dee and shes an energy vampire and she kinda got sick from it so I just let my energy flow and do a quick check up daily before going to bed to get rid of anything bad, I like to think of it like a virus scan for a computer its something you dont have to do every waking second and even though you dont have to do it daily its just better if you do do daily just in case XP

[Kira]

 
Heh, I mostly use sanctuary.
It's like a purifying shockwive that cleanses everything malicious away.
Or anything that I'm not actively wanting to stay with me.
 
Though sometimes it feels like I myself am a walking sanctuary for all the lack of spiritual stuff ever happening in my general vincinity.

[Fujo Jigen]

lol nice nah me I tend to get lucky alot and find others who are spiritual like me though not always are they kitsune lol

[Takumi-no-Kitsune]

Your above statement, my friend, has just given me a self realization that I overlooked. I know what tails I have, but I've lost touch with feeling them lately, and perhaps that is because I have my aura blocked for my own specific reason...

*facepalm*

you can never go wrong with a facepalm  hey that kinda rhymed.... but hey even I have those facepalm moments and I know what you mean Ive had to block my aura before too because my 'ex friend' (who broke all ties with me leaving me clueless as to why) keeps trying to put curses on me, luckily my friend who can see aura's knows when she tries something cause she'll see something black, goopy, slippery, and hair like, trying to cling to me. though Ive developed a way to not have to worry about it anymore. what I do is I manipulate my aura to disintegrate any foreign aura. pretty much I picture the edge of my aura kinda looking like pixels which are made of even smaller pixels and so on and so on, that attack anything bad aimed at me though I try not to have it on all the time, I had it on around my friend dee and shes an energy vampire and she kinda got sick from it so I just let my energy flow and do a quick check up daily before going to bed to get rid of anything bad, I like to think of it like a virus scan for a computer its something you dont have to do every waking second and even though you dont have to do it daily its just better if you do do daily just in case XP

I blocked my aura because of an event that took place a few years ago with an entity my "sister" and I encountered. Unfortunately, at the cost of protecting myself, my "sister" fell into a dark void of confusion and horrible turmoil because of the entity that spun lies to us (though I could very well tell at the time and proceeded with caution and warned her to do so as well). This entity had an odd effect on the energies of both my sister and I, and I could not tell what excalty said entity was. However, I guess out of fear I kept myself hidden away, and blinded myself in the process.

Now if only I could find my bottle of elbow grease.... 

[Fujo Jigen]

Your above statement, my friend, has just given me a self realization that I overlooked. I know what tails I have, but I've lost touch with feeling them lately, and perhaps that is because I have my aura blocked for my own specific reason...

*facepalm*

you can never go wrong with a facepalm  hey that kinda rhymed.... but hey even I have those facepalm moments and I know what you mean Ive had to block my aura before too because my 'ex friend' (who broke all ties with me leaving me clueless as to why) keeps trying to put curses on me, luckily my friend who can see aura's knows when she tries something cause she'll see something black, goopy, slippery, and hair like, trying to cling to me. though Ive developed a way to not have to worry about it anymore. what I do is I manipulate my aura to disintegrate any foreign aura. pretty much I picture the edge of my aura kinda looking like pixels which are made of even smaller pixels and so on and so on, that attack anything bad aimed at me though I try not to have it on all the time, I had it on around my friend dee and shes an energy vampire and she kinda got sick from it so I just let my energy flow and do a quick check up daily before going to bed to get rid of anything bad, I like to think of it like a virus scan for a computer its something you dont have to do every waking second and even though you dont have to do it daily its just better if you do do daily just in case XP

I blocked my aura because of an event that took place a few years ago with an entity my "sister" and I encountered. Unfortunately, at the cost of protecting myself, my "sister" fell into a dark void of confusion and horrible turmoil because of the entity that spun lies to us (though I could very well tell at the time and proceeded with caution and warned her to do so as well). This entity had an odd effect on the energies of both my sister and I, and I could not tell what excalty said entity was. However, I guess out of fear I kept myself hidden away, and blinded myself in the process.

Now if only I could find my bottle of elbow grease.... 

yeah bad experiences tend to leave a bad feeling afterwards, I just stopped letting them affect me cause thats basically what they want, and since Im stubborn as hell and dont like giving people what they want when they try to hurt me...yeah... XD
But I know exactly what your talking about, something got in thru my window one time and attacked me mental wise as I was going to bed, it went thru my right ear and then thru my brain, it super sucked and hurt and tingled and I just got so pissed off when it started laughing at me I just snapped and said "oh hell no" used all my energy against it in shoving it out and sealing it up in my yoyo (it was the closest thing I had at the moment), I gave it to a spiritual friend to interrogate to find out what it wanted and after we were done with it we disposed of it (after I gave it my just deserts of course  I am very vindictive). but it took me a good two weeks to a month to recuperate from that, luckily a friend of mine gave me some protection stones that I hung up in my window which helped protect me for a bit and once I had enough energy though I put my own type of barrier/seal on there to keep the f**kers out, but atleast this time I know how to fight it off.

Hell the only reason I started 'listening' to it (when it went thru my ear) is because thats normally how actual spirits talk to me and I never had one attack me before, course this last one was the first time I talked to a spirit since I moved to this state and this state has 'alot' of malevolent spirits (specially after katrina), now that I think about it I should of seen that coming, I already have one downstairs in the dinning room, course it only likes it when the lights are off, and I kinda have an agreement of "I dont bother you if you dont bother me, if you do bother me I send you to oblivion... get it? got it? good."  didnt leave it with much of a choice...know what I should open an excorsizm (sp?) shop here, Id probably make millions....

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